Doing Nothing on a Saturday Night

I could so go out tonight and try and meet folks... for some reason, I'm just not feeling it.

I don't want to fuck up my sleep schedule--I'm doing really well in terms of my fitness goals.

I've been having trouble with my mood and I finally figured out why.
1. I have to have a serious boyfriend regardless of whether I choose to settle down with a dude
or a girl LT.
2. I don't have enough meaningful contact with folk--this one's complicated.

I am somewhat averse to clubs I guess. I've loved them in the past. Partly because here I cannot be as anonymous as when I am a total out of towner. I've been long and around enough here at school to be recognized for any naughtiness. This fact bothers me.

So, an interesting quotes that I found:

SMASHING PUMPKINS
"Zero"

My reflection, dirty mirror
There's no connection to myself
I'm your lover, I'm your zero
I'm the face in your dreams of glass
So save your prayers
For when we're really gonna need'em
Throw out your cares and fly
Wanna go for a ride?

She's the one for me
She's all I really need
Cause she's the one for me
Emptiness is loneliness, and loneliness is cleanliness
And cleanliness is godliness, and god is empty just like me
Intoxicated with the madness, I'm in love with my sadness
Bullshit fakers, enchanted kingdoms
The fashion victims chew their charcoal teeth
I never let on, that I was on a sinking ship
I never let on that I was down
You blame yourself, for what you can't ignore
You blame yourself for wanting more
She's the one for me
She's all I really need
She's the one for me
She's my one and only