OMG--how much do I love him

I've been so into the Lawyer it hurts. I finally told him I had feelings for him. He was shocked. I'll write about that soon. He said he had to process. He didn't talk much.

Since telling him, exactly a week ago, I have not seen him at the gym. I have to be okay with losing him. I really do.

I think of him so often.

I don't like to think of my feelings as being either good or bad. I just like to enjoy them. So perhaps this is not the best song to be listening to, but it captures my feelings at the moment =)

Help, I have done it again
I have been here many times before
I hurt myself again today
And, the worst part is there's no-one else to blame

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
and needy
Warm me up
And breathe me

Ouch

I have lost myself again
Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found,
Yeah I think that I might break
Lost myself again and I feel unsafe

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
and needy
Warm me up
And breathe me